Topic Title: Just getting started
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, Fri 5 Apr 12:37
Hi everyone!
I just started taking SJW today out of desperation. I'm glad I found this site for help. I have been going through severe mood ups and downs for years now. Only now, it seems it's mostly downs. I seem to think in negative terms about everything. And even while I'm doing this I am telling myself to stop it but I can't. I've been to doctors in the past who diagnosed me as an adult with Attention Defficit Dissorder and possibly depression. I tried several medications, but had severe reactions to them. My current doctor feels that I'm "just stressed"--DUH!!! What I can't get him to realize is that I'm ALWAYS stressed. I feel so much is asked of me from all directions and I just can't do it all. For about a year now I have had frequent thoughts of suicide. Now it's every day. My doctor kind of passed it off as "stress" again and said that I could go ahead and try SJW if I wanted to. My brothers get very nervous if I even bring those thoughts up. My husband's only comment was "That's too bad. You shouldn't feel that way." I was blown away! I always thought that if something should happen to me and I needed their support that these people would be there for me. Anyway, things are getting very intense at work (Retail) and although a lot of it is because of certain ones who like to make others missrable, I know that part of the problem is me not being able to let go of the comments and just let them pass. Others of you who have been diagnosed with depression, do you seem to take EVERYTHING to heart? Do you also tend to feel like everyone is againt you and that you are just not good enough? I sure hope this treatment works. From reading several postings I understand that I need to give it some time and may have to tweek the dosage times to best suit me personally. As the little icon shows...I'm under construction. All help is very welcome. --Nancy
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| |  "Re(1):Just getting started"
, Sat 6 Apr 16:06
Wow, reading those two posts (so far) really gave me some inspiration in taking SJW. I just started taking it tonight, and from what I read, I just need to make sure that I stick with it. I am planning on taking 1, 300 mg in the morning, and 1 at night. I hope this will be okay, I will wait and see. “Chillout”, were you on any med’s before (or during) you took SJW? I am on Ritalin presently, and have for the past 10+ years, for ADD. It was fine when I was younger, but now it seems like the feelings you were describing are exactly how I feel, word for word, and the Ritalin is not helping much anymore. I am curious to see if you were taking anything also. Please let me know how SJW does for you. I am excited to see so much positive stories on this board about SJW, I hope to join you soon!
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| | | "Re(2):Just getting started" , Sat 6 Apr 20:08
Yarzy--
Isn't the encouragement great here? I think this site will be a great coping tool for both of us as we get back on stable ground. Yes I was on medication for ADD, but it was quite a while ago. I was given several different drugs...Imiprimine & Ritalin come to mind, but there were quite a few others both in the anti-depressant and anphedamine catagories. They all either made my heart race uncontrollably (Ritalin), or caused an allergic reaction, or scared me because I found myself needing more and more. For the life of me I can't remember the last one I was on. It was one that I swear I could feel myself becoming addicted to. It scared me pretty bad, so I quit. This was just before Prozak and Adderall were released. I was too nervouse to try them.
You said that you are currently on Ritalin, but are starting SJW. I have to ask...does you doctor know that you are mixing both? If not please be very careful. From what I've read, you need to use caution in weaning off of one before starting the other. Just like weaning off of one prescription med to try another. And please keep in touch to let us know how you're doing. :)
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| | "Re(1):Just getting started" , Sat 6 Apr 12:35
My god, did I write this in my sleep!
I am your long lost twin - its exactly how I feel and alot of others here too - you are not alone.
I take EVERYTHING to heart!!! I am a softy, but I take everything to heart, and it eats away too - so I cant stop thinking about it! Negative feelings YEP! Allt he stuff I used to live for - I cant be bothered with now - though it is improving. Suicide - sort of - though not because I want out, simply because it would be better than felling like I have on a bad day. Negative thoughts - my god yes! Though SJW has really turned me around. I still have bad days, but because I have runs of normal days, they make the bad days look worse. Stick with the SJW - it will help - it may take a few weeks, but will be worth it. I got told I was stressed first too. Nancy - you are still in there, you just got a little bogged down and the SJw will help rebalance you and make you feel as you used to - I was just like you 6 weeks ago - and as I say I have good and bad days - but I did before I got depressed. As for your support network - they are probably scared, anxious and have taken the "depression - thats a pyscho thing" atttude. Alot of people shy away from it as it is very misunderstood.
Stick with it and let us know how you go - you can always pop in here for a bit of support!
take care
good luck
Jex
xx
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| | | "Re(2):Just getting started" , Sat 6 Apr 19:48
Thanks so much for the words of encouragement. It means so much just to know that it's not just me, that others have felt this way too. I took 900mg all at once yesterday and it did make me a bit tired in the afternoon. Today I took half this morning, then I'll try takin the other half this evening. I have this weekend off so at least I don't have pressing stress from work. Although I still find myself mulling over this last week's stresses over and over. Oh, how I envy those who can leave it at work. Maybe someday I'll join them. I just heard a song that talks about taking "baby steps and deep breaths". Sounds like a good place to start. Thanks again! --Nancy
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