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, Sun 16 Mar 08:10
I just found this board this morning and after having read through the entire site, found it very informative.
For years, I have suspected I suffer from moderate depression. I have many ups and downs, weeks (rarely), days or hours either way. I find it doesn't take much to trigger the negative feelings. I have researched depression many times but have never had a doctor diagnose it as depression - most of the time they think it is severe stress. I have also seen a number of counsellors who have been of little to no help.
It all started about 10 years ago when my Dad was diagnosed with a serious, degenerative disease. After dealing with mild depression for about a year or so, I went into a major depression requiring medication. I felt good for about a year afterward but that didn't last. The depression returned about 3 1/2 years ago when my Mom passed away.
This past year and half have been particularly bad. Throughout September to November, I worked part-time - doctors orders - I refused medication as I hate taking pills. I worked from home 3-days since January but I am scheduled to return to working 5-days in the office starting Monday. I don't feel that I am ready for this but have no choice as my boss wants me back in the office full-time.
I have had many of the symptoms (feeling sad, lonely, discouraged, hopeless or worthless, low self-esteem, guilt, difficulty concentrating or making decisions, loss of motivation, loss of interest in work, angry, loss of pleasure in my hobbies, don't sleep well...) for a very long time and seems to be getting worse. I also have many anxieties: claustrophobia, heights, driving to or going to locations that I have never been to before, getting sick (specifically vomitting), spiders, crowds, to name a few...
I bought some St Johns Wort a few months ago but only started using it a few days ago. I am hoping that it helps me real soon. I am encouraged by the stories and information that I have read on this site.
Is it common for day-to-day stresses (to which I have many) trigger depressive moods? or worsen them?
Posts: 0 | | Registered: Sun 16 Mar 2003 7:40 |
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, Sun 16 Mar 12:24
Hi Cormash,
I'm a relitavely new member to this site but I've found it to be really informative and helpful.
I suffer from many of the same problems as you...claustraphobia, crowd phobias and depression. My worst problem is the anxiety at being away from home bordering on agarophobia that started when I went away from University which was an extremely stressul time in my life (I came home again because the panic attacks became too much to deal with).
I would say that stress for me DEFINATELY triggers anxiety, and makes my depression worse (although I'm depressed pratically all of the time).
SJW has helped me with the depression. It hasn't gone away but it's definatey easier to cope with. Anxiety/stress is harder to cope with.
People say "You just need to calm down" but it's so hard to do and if you do find some time when you can just do nothing you can't settle. I don't know if this is how you feel but it's certainly what I've experienced.
Hope you find some solace in the words of myself and others on this site. Because everybody is struggling with similar problems, it's a lifeline.
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| | | "Re(2):new member" , Sun 16 Mar 17:25
Hi Cherrycat, now that I have admitted to myself what the problem actually is, I realize I have had depression for many years although with the exception of one other time, it hasn't always been as bad as it has been this past year or so. I got a promotion 1 1/2 ago, and my new boss is horrible - she is very cold, obviously chooses who she likes and dislikes and makes life he** for those she dislikes (I'm one of those), and my Dad is not doing very well - things have really gone downhill from there.
I haven't had any major panic attacks although I come close whenever I am forced to take an elevator.
I am always very tired, very unorganized, indecisive, and can't concentrate -the total opposite of what I used to be like. It has affected the few friendships I had, I no longer have anyone but my husband that I can talk to but although he tries and is very supportive, it is difficult for him to understand what I am going through.
I hope the SJW works as well for me as it has for others and I can get back to some form of a normal life.
Posts: 1 | | Registered: Sun 16 Mar 2003 7:40 |
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