Topic Title: How do i know if i really am depressed?
| |  "How do i know if i really am depressed?"
, Wed 29 Oct 15:28
Hi, I've been reading your messages on the forum and it seems there are alot of sensible and supportive people who visit this site...I hope that someone understands what I have to say because I suppose it still sounds weird to me...
I am 24 and have suspected that I am depressed for around 6 years but have always dismissed this thought. I'm not really sure if what I'm feeling counts as depression...and I don't really understand how I feel. I'm so weird.
My younger brother was told he was depressed by our doctor when he was 18, after that my parents tip-toed around him to avoid upsetting him which has turned him into a spoilt brat.
I never really believed that he was depressed...I believed and still believe that the doctor was too hasty to tell my parents he was depressed and that my brother found that it was too easy to start crying whenever my parents challenged him. Now, when he makes a demand from my family and doesn't get his way, he gets incredibly angry until he does get his way...just like a two year old.
This is one big reason why I've not told anyone about how I feel especially my family because I didn't want to worry them or end up like my brother.
At the moment, I feel worse than ever. I feel like I can't have a normal conversation with anyone without feeling awkward, paranoid and insecure about what they may think about me.
I constantly conjure up ridiculous, negative scenarios in my mind which are usually about myself but sometimes about people who are close to me. I dwell on made up thoughts that end up making me feel depressed and I can't seem to stop.
They don't know it, but my boyfriend and my mother are the only people I feel truly comfortable around now and I live far away from both of them at the moment.
My confidence has really suffered over the past few years. I am so unsure of myself but always behave like I am confident and this makes me feel like a faker and I'm sure it pisses people off too. I am always worried that I will expose how I feel to other people and they will either dismiss me or feel sorry for me...both of which I couldn't bear.
But then I ignore my feelings and examine who I am, what I have achieved, who my friends are and all the people I have who love me and I always come to the conclusion that I must be nuts to feel the way I do and wonder how is it possible?
Can anyone tell me: do you know what I mean???
Posts: 0 | | Registered: Wed 29 Oct 2003 14:18 |
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| |  "Re(1):How do i know if i really am depressed?"
, Tue 13 Jan 17:02
I know exactly what you mean. I too have a younger sibling who has depression. My entire family tip toes around her and treats her like a baby at all times. I recently moved to TX away from all of my friends and family to be with my boyfriend, and that's how I discovered that I too live with depression. I dont like going out of my house anymore. I always think people are starring at me and making negitive comments. I cant remember the last time I was happy. Looking back in my life, there hasnt been a time where I have been really happy. It seems so far gone that I dont know if I've ever been happy or what happiness even is anymore. I have thought about trying SJW, but all of the menstration side effects scare me. I know I have to do something, because I've had enough of being angry all the time. Please any suggestions would help.
Posts: 0 | | Registered: Tue 13 Jan 2004 16:54 |
| |  "Re(1):How do i know if i really am depressed?"
, Sat 1 Nov 20:30:
CharlieBrown,
You are not weird. You appear to have anxiety/depression which may be exasperated by the fact that you are away from your loved ones. The symptoms you describe are familiar to most in this forum. St. John's Wort may help. I have been taking it for approx. 3 months. It has helped a lot with depression. However, as I have discovered, by not resolving some of the issues/situations in your life that help to contribute to your depression, they will continue to drag you down. St. John's Wort will likely help, but as with any other medicine, other factors such as a proper diet, exercise, doing the things you like and being with those you love are components to a healthy mind. Your confidence level seems to be a bit low right now and the best way to improve that is to do the things your good at and be with the people who care about you for who you are. I know it's not always that simple. St. John's Wort has worked great for my depression and the obsessive self examination has slowed down significantly, however, anxiety is still a problem, although less severe. I find cutting out the caffeine helps big time in this department. I'm sure others will offer suggestions.
Take Care.
Forager
[this message was edited by forager on Sat 1 Nov 20:39]
Posts: 3 | | Registered: Sun 31 Aug 2003 10:33 |
| | "Re(1):How do i know if i really am depressed?" , Fri 31 Oct 01:25
yep I kno exactly what u mean, only a year ago I realized that althroughout my childhood I suffered from depression and anxiety, which was very hard as a i grew up thinking it was just the way I was and I couldn't change it. My high school years particually became difficult as there are many pressures that hit you hard in those years as you change into an adult. At the end of high school was when I started to realize my condition and take action by reseaching cures for anxiety and depression, excersing and taking vitamin supplements, and then I discovered sjw which changed my perspective on life completely. All the syptoms u described and the many of the questions you ask youself in your mind sound exaclty the same or similiar to me and what I suffered from and I assure u ur certainly not "weird" at all, but are rather just anxious and depressed like I was. I seriously recommend u consider taking st john's wort, it "cured" me and it sounds like it will be very helpful to you.
Posts: 1 | | Registered: Thu 30 Oct 2003 22:58 |
| | | "Re(2):How do i know if i really am depressed?" , Wed 21 Jan 14:00
Just wanted to let you know I felt like I was reading my own post when I read yours...you described me..except for the younger sibling..
It is depression and anxiety...
Posts: 13 | | Registered: Mon 8 Sep 2003 9:4 |
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