Topic Title: am I depressed
| |  "am I depressed"
, Sat 14 Jun 13:42
Hi I trust I am talking to some experts on the subject so I hope you can help me. I am new to this site and am making some tentative explorations into SJW.
I wonder what's the difference between low self esteem which I deffinately do have and depression. I am seeing a councellor at the moment and to be honest some times it feels like I am under continual assessment waiting for that glorius day whaen she says your fixed go forth into the world. I have a lot going on in my life right now so many changes but to be honest I've never been a very positive person regardless of whether things are going well or not. I feel frightened of the whole world of depression what it means all the stigma and lack of understandings. Makes me want to resist and struggle on. It's as if there is a 'coming out' phase if I can use that phrase. I am confused if I go to my doctor it will be on my medical records and seen as employers even ask questions such as Have you ever had emotional problems? now it's all so crap. If anyone can make head nor tail of this well done any advice will be gladly recieved,
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| |  "Re(1):am I depressed"
, Mon 16 Jun 17:16
I was scared by that too but I think the stats are that 500 000 people in the uk suffer from depression - dont quote me but someone quoted me that they were of that magnitude and I felt really relieved by that. I have been to a doctor very confused who referred me to a psychologist who told me where to stick it. I have never been back so my medical records probably say "Suspected suffering from depression - unconfirmed and untreated" but being happy is more important :)
Depression is defined (I forgot by what standard) as a period of unhappiness lasting longer than 2 to 3 weeks. From my understanding, very few professions are allowed to directly access your medical records. I was exactly like you about 2 years ago and I remember researching the facts and finding them quite relieving. I have my little nuggest of information but I lost my hard core facts when my hard disk went several months ago :( Try not to panic and if you can find a way to do so that you're happy with - express your concerns to your doctor - he knows the answers for certain. Never be ashamed of being unhappy :) Although I appreciate that some employers may judge you on it - most wont know.
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| | "Re(1):am I depressed" , Mon 16 Jun 10:13
I am no expert as in being able to give you medical terms but can give you my experince with knowing what depression feels like...
at first i had no desire to change anything i just always felt alone and often sad. i did a lot of drugs to make me feel better ( street drugs and precribed)made me worse...at some of my lowest times i wanted to die...i would over eat and undereat sleep a lot or have insomnia. I too was afraid of the big bad world and became isolated.
so for me there were a lot of outside things that were really messed up that were not helping my situation at all.
today ...5 years clean and sober...changed a lot in my life ..therapy and learning new coping skills i do ok.
everything around me is better..diffent people healthy postive people a beautiful little girl but yet i still get so down..low it feels like i am in a tunnel at times..a million miles away from everyone i get so cranky so fast anger over takes my being and i get so tired and want to just lay down...taking a shower is often like the biggest task in my day..my body hurts and i just want to give up at times..but i do not ... i hang on ...a day at a time a moment at a time.. I know now i need to try something to go along with all the changes ..for now i am trying sjw.... i have hope i can overcome this.
Peace
Posts: 9 | | Registered: Mon 26 May 2003 18:11 |
| | |  "Re(2):am I depressed"
, Tue 17 Jun 09:17
Hi thank you for your replys.
It's god to know someone is out there listening. I'm on my 3rd day of SJW and I think it is making a difference. It's interesting that a lot of people mention extra sensativity to the sun. Well that's nothing new to me as I have always been a bit that way inclined.
MY thoughts are a bit off beam at the moment as I have just put my back out. while I'm on can anyone recommend good books I find that helps to lift my mood. surpringly I am reading the diary of Anne frank at the moment at it is in many ways an uplifting book.
Thanks again Kit
Posts: 1 | | Registered: Sat 14 Jun 2003 13:33 |
| | | "feeling effects? maybe" , Tue 17 Jun 19:55
Good luck to you ...hope it works out well with you...i have lost track of how long i been taking sjw ...about a month now and i think something is happening...i feel the tunnel vision and in the last few days i been noticing i am coming back out of it quicker..maybe a coincedence maybe not, USALLY it lasts for hours sometimes days. last few times just about an hour ...this is looking up. I have also noticed i been keeping up with housework chores ...i fall back a lot due to feeling such low energy.
Posts: 10 | | Registered: Mon 26 May 2003 18:11 |
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