Topic Title: not doing too well today
| |  "not doing too well today"
, Wed 7 May 09:54
I've been using SJW for almost a month now and today's the lowest I've been. I just feel horrible today. Being depressed feels like a losing battle. One minute I'll be fine, the next very low. I want to be a happy, positive person. There's really nothing wrong with my life. I have a wonderful, loving husband, a great sis-in-law, and several fuzzies. My life is mostly good. I just can't understand why this does this to me. I just feel miserable. I worry that something horrible'll happen. I'm almost obsessed with that thought. I don't know why though. I also think that if I keep living like this, I'll look back on my life and think to myself that all I did was be unhappy throughout it all. I was always somewhat depressed as a teenager but it seems that as I've gotten older it's been getting worse and worse. That, and it seems like anything good I do for myself, my body builds up a tolerance to. Maybe that part's in my imagination but I've been practicing yoga and meditating and that really upped my mood for a while but now it doesn't. I just don't know. I'm gonna ride out the SJW for a while longer just to make sure. It was working in the beginning.
Angie
Posts: 2 | | Registered: Mon 28 Apr 2003 20:41 |
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| | "Re(1):not doing too well today" , Fri 9 May 11:09
Hello Angie, Just wanted to tell you to please hang in there. I think most of the posters here understand and can sympathize with how you are feeling. I too sometimes get upset because my life is good, better than what I ever imagined it would be, and I still have days where I am just not happy/content and it is more frustrating because I don't know why! What the other posters said are true, just hang in there, ride the storm out. I think we are all smart enough to know the gray/dark mood doesn't last forever, we do have good days---we just wish they would stay around longer! I think myself that I am going to have to understand that the SJW is not a miracle cure, my basic personality is not going to change. The most I can hope for is that with SJW's help I will be able to control the anger, lows, to a stable even point. The exercise is good, maybe walking also? This would help you to get outside for fresh air and sunshine. I have also started lifting weights, this is great for diffusing anger! (as long as you don't throw the weights at anyone!) hehe I noticed your follow up posting and you said you were having a better day. Yeah! As one poster said somewhere in this forum, "we can never give up hope, sometimes that is all we have."
lynn
Posts: 6 | | Registered: Wed 7 May 2003 11:59 |
| | | "Re(2):not doing too well today" , Sat 10 May 12:02
Thank you, Lynn! That's all I want is for my emotions to stabilize. I know everyone has good days and bad days but I wish they weren't so much in the extreme. I want my emotions to be more even and calm. Thank you both, who responded to my post, for the reassurance :)
Angie
Posts: 4 | | Registered: Mon 28 Apr 2003 20:41 |
| | "Re(1):not doing too well today" , Thu 8 May 11:39
i am not an expert, i have been on sjw for 7 weeks. but i would suggest you give it a little more time to fully start working. i know exactly what you are feeling, it is how i felt for a long time before i began treatment about 1 1/2 yrs ago. i have a great husband, great kids, great family...no problems, but still horribly depressed - found no joy in things i should and very irritable/angry alot. i started on an antidepressant in 9/01 but went off of it 7weeks ago and began sjw and 5htp. i know you feel like it won't get better, but it will...you have to give yourself time and find what works for you. most important for me was to release myself of some of the responsibility of how i was feeling and realize that there were physical/biological issues that were causing my depression. this helped because when i felt guilty about being depressed, i got more depressed. i still have the occasional bad day, but the key is to keep going. maybe someone else here can give you better advice as far as sjw and other supplements, but i just wanted to encourage you to hang in there. get outside if you can, take a walk (exercise is helpful), make sure you are getting good nutrition and don't give up on the sjw yet, wait a couple more weeks at least to really give it time to work.
best wishes,
denise
Posts: 10 | | Registered: Sun 6 Apr 2003 13:29 |
| | | "Re(2):not doing too well today" , Thu 8 May 21:29
Thank you! I am going to give it more time. I started to take some flaxseed oil too. I read that that's good for depression as well, not to mention it's very healthy just so. I've been trying to work on letting things go. I was talking with my sister-in-law and told her how it feels like it's an uphill battle. She knows that I meditate sometimes. So she told me that when I feel this way to imagine I'm sliding down on a slope and as I am sliding to imagine maybe grabbing a hold of a rock or a little tree to pull myself to the top. To imagine each handhold as something that's important to me in life like my husband or my cats. I figure it couldn't hurt to try it. It might help. I'll try getting outside more too. It just seems like there's so much that needs to be done around the house that I don't get outside often enough. I've heard getting a daily dose of sunshine is good for you. I guess I gotta keep fighting it. Days like yesterday make it so difficult though. Today, at least, I'm feeling so much better.
Angie
Posts: 3 | | Registered: Mon 28 Apr 2003 20:41 |
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