Topic Title: 6 years and counting
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, Wed 9 Apr 20:38
I am approaching my 38th birthday feeling good and 'in control.' Looking back, depression entered my life alongside puberty. Throughout high school and my twenties, my biggest secret was that I hated myself, and I made sure that no one had a clue about the insecurities I was really feeling. I know that all of you can relate to the pain, lack of control and helplessness associated with depression. It is because of this common link with you that I am posting this message - something I have never done before. My husband heard about St. John's approximately six years ago. I started out taking 2-300mg capsules daily and cut back to one because of heartburn. I am also very small-framed and weigh 105lbs. It took me months before I began to 'see' subtle changes happening, especially just before my period which was the worst time. It took 2 years to convince myself that it was working and that I was not experiencing a placebo effect. I wanted relief so badly, yet, in order to avoid further disappointment, I was extremely hesistant to believe that St.John's was working. Eight years later I am here to say, without any hesitation, that St. John's has truly been a blessing in my life. Its been like clock-work. When I'm consistent with the pills, I'm far more even-keeled, genuinely self-assured, and don't go into any downward dives of depression. I watch my alcohol and sugar intake, and don't drink coffee. On the other hand, when I skip my pills, I pay the price and enter into a temporary existance of hell. I haven't experienced any side effects with the pills, although light sensitivity has occurred to me from time to time. I do wonder about the future though. My husband and I have been trying to have children for the past 2 1/2 years. I underwent emergency surgery for an ectopic pregnancy in June. Two weeks ago, I decided to "abruptly" stop taking St.John's and now, after just reading Kelly's recommendation "don't stop abruptly," I have confirmed, that my present feelings of emptiness are connected with not taking the pills. I'll go back to weaning myself off them and hopefully, all will go well. I don't like taking pills. On the other hand, I know that I would be far more concerned about taking prescriptive meds and most importantly, the relief that St.John's has brought me has been invaluable. -Just a few thoughts to share from an old-time user! Thanks Kelly for the opportunity.
Posts: 0 | | Registered: Wed 9 Apr 2003 18:56 |
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| | "Re(1):6 years and counting" , Sun 13 Apr 17:59
Thank you for sharing your story! It is very inspiring for me, just what I needed to hear!
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Posts: 3 | | Registered: Sun 13 Apr 2003 17:45 |
| | "Re(1):6 years and counting" , Thu 10 Apr 18:54
Thank you for your post. It was just what I needed to hear. I've been on SJW for about 4 months and god what a difference. I was on it before last year and I really didn't those vitamins didn't make any difference. Was I ever wrong. I'm much happier, at 43 years old I'm much healthier mentally, mood swings are far less apart if I do feel sad, it's only for a few hours, not days or weeks or months like before. I'm like you I'm more even keeled, content. I'm now eating healthy 99% of the time, I'm back to cooking like I used to, I meditate and chant regularly and I'm a much easier person to live with and I like myself more.
Thank you for such a good story, very inspiring.
Posts: 5 | | Registered: Sat 22 Mar 2003 22:52 |
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