Topic Title: Worthless, how did you know my thoughts?
| |  "Worthless, how did you know my thoughts?"
, Tue 18 Feb 05:03
All I can say is that Worthless summed it up beautifully exactly how I feel and in a far more eloquent way than I ever could. Worthless, try to remember that you are a beautiful person inside even though I know it's the hardest thing to think. I two have two young children and think myself hideous and overweight. I too live only for my children. And i too started SJW as a last resort before antidepressants. I started six days ago. So far nothing. Don't know if I'm taking the right dosage. Been feeling a bit over tired though and heachachey, even irritable. Anyone else experienced that initially?? If this doesn't work I don't know what I'll do.
Posts: 2 | | Registered: Tue 18 Feb 2003 4:39 |
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| | "Re(1):Worthless, how did you know my thoughts" , Tue 18 Feb 19:12
Hi
Just wanted to say that I too have just started taking SJW- about 7 days ago. So far, have not felt any difference, but I know it's early days. I too have 2 children and suffering from feelings of worthlessness, trying to please my husband without pleasing myself...really hope that things will start to change for me and for you and am much encouraged by this web site.
It's good to know that we are not alone in this struggle and we will beat this.
Posts: 0 | | Registered: Tue 18 Feb 2003 19:6 |
| |  "Re(1):Worthless, how did you know my thoughts"
, Tue 18 Feb 16:39:
Jazzy,
I went back and read worthless' post, and I was that same person a few years ago. If your at this board you are ready to change your life, and you will beat depression. If your depression is severe I suggest something stronger than sjw. Maybe a combination of sjw and 5htp or a high dose of just 5htp 300-500 mg. SJW did not work for me (allergic reaction) but 5htp lifted the darkness, hopelessness, worthlessness and lonliness that I felt. I was able to stop crying, get out of bed, and get into THERAPY. Take one day at a time, take baby steps but use all the resources out there to beat it. Listen to uplifting music, I'm a christian and found christian pop music to be very uplifting. Go to the library and take out some books about depression...be informed. Pray, meditate, exercise, volunteer. I know it seems like a lot to change, but you can do it slowly. Just know that you can beat it, your kids need you to. It's a process and like everything else you will have set backs, but just keep plugging along and the light will shine, and you will be happy.
I know with small children and no support, the hardest part was finding someone to take care of them so I could take care of myself. I was lucky enough to find a therapist with evening hours so my husband watched the kids while I went to talk about my problems. You can take the kids to story hour at the library, and go to church playgroups to hook up with other mothers that may want to exchange babysitting so you can have an hour or two to yourself. I'm sure you'll find the help you need.
MJ DuPont
[this message was edited by DuPont on Tue 18 Feb 16:47]
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| | | "Re(2):Worthless, how did you know my thoughts" , Wed 19 Feb 01:32
Thanks very much to both of you for responding, like you said lara, it's good to know not we're not alone. Please tell me what is 5htp. I've heard it talked alot about on this site but haven't heard of it before now. It that better for depression than SJW. I must say, it's been a week now and I feel more irritable if anything. But after reading the messages here, realized I was not taking enough, so I upped the dosage yesterday. Let's see....As far as the finding time for me goes, it's virtually impossible. My husband was very controling and abusive and we are seperated. He has the kids one day a week, but that day I have to go to work. Have no family or close friends who could watch the kids. Sometimes I just want to run away.......But I know if I left the kdis with their dad, I'd never get them back. Everything feels so hopeless, there's just no light at the end of the tunnel. I really hope this works :(
Posts: 4 | | Registered: Tue 18 Feb 2003 4:39 |
| | | "Re(3):Worthless, how did you know my thoughts" , Sat 22 Feb 17:07
Jazzy, I am so sorry to hear of what you are going through. I hope SJW will help you as much as it has helped me. I have been taking it just over two weeks now and I can absolutely see an improvement in my outlook on life.
I know how hard it is to live this way. I also know how much you love your children. I know if it were not for my little boys I would certainly not be here today. It is amazing what we can do for our children.
I am glad you are trying SJW. I really do believe it can help. I am glad to hear you are not giving up. I am still having some down time but for the most part, I really do feel better.
I don't just feel happier, I feel like I have a little more control over my own life. I feel just a tiny bit more confident. I really believe I will be O.K. now. It is nice to have found hope.
These pages help me. You and every other person who post in this forum are bright lights along life's often dark way. I am so sorry for your suffering, but by posting here, you help the rest of us to know we are not so alone. Thank you so much.
All of my life I have felt like an alien. I have felt like I did not belong here on Earth. I have often cursed the day I was born. I still do not feel like I belong anywhere, but I think I can learn to accept that now. Maybe there is something good in us that makes us feel that way. Maybe it is not a defect, but a blessing that we just cant see.
I will keep you in my thoughts. I believe we can beat this. I believe we can learn to live again for our children and for ourselves. I have posted an update on my progress. I hope you will keep us updated on your situation as well.
Again, Thank you so much for opening up your life to us. You are helping so many people. I can tell from your posting that you truly are a beautiful caring person with a lot to live for. Hang in there. We will survive.
Posts: 2 | | Registered: Thu 6 Feb 2003 18:0 |
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