Topic Title: I Think I'll wait a bit yet
| |  "I Think I'll wait a bit yet"
, Mon 20 Jan 14:52
Been looking at this website and forum. Nice to see it here. Thanks.
I've never really suffered from sustained depression at all till just after Xmas.
I just turned 40 and have been having these dreams about how all of my childhood stuff is gone and I can never go back. Over the years I've always been under the illusion that "I'll move on to something else, but can always go back if I want". Well, I'm starting to realize that there have been so many years, so many people moving on, that the childhood/teenage years cannot be recovered. I've been suffering from bouts of depression mixed with anxiety since about the 1st week of January. It seems to get better as time goes on, but its still not gone and is worse in the morning, which would match the fact that Serotonin levels are lowest in the morning.
I'm big on family. Last year, an aunt, the "glue" of our family died after having a stroke a year earlier. Didn't hit me till after Xmas, though - along with turning 40 in early Dec.
Found out that my other aunt is suffering depression as well. She was on SJW but for some reason stopped.
Anyways - I'll wait a bit to see if this problem passes on its own. Maybe I just have to come to grips with issues, etc.
I know the FAQ recommends that you don't start on SJW if depression is a "one time" or occasional thing. What are your thougts on that?
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| | "Re(1):I Think I'll wait a bit yet" , Tue 21 Jan 13:22
For good or bad we must live in the time we exist. I sometimes look back to the teen years and the life i had, but it's gone and can't be brought back. Wouldn't it be fun to go back and get a second shot at some things. I might suggest you go to the library and look into depression deeper. You may have been in depression longer than you think. It's always changing, mild, moderate , severe. Many books have tests that you can take that will let you know whether you are in some level of depression. You're right, in that you wouldn't want to take any medication for a one time, brief bout of depression. Just be sure to get a good idea that it really is temporary. Depression is difficult once it has found a home. I left mine untreated for years and it's really hard to dig all that junk out of your mind and replace it with healthy, positive ideas. Good luck.
James
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| | | "Re(2):I Think I'll wait a bit yet" , Tue 21 Jan 14:50
Thanks for the words of encouragement.
Years? Yes, thats what I was just thinking. Looking back on my last 20 years (since I left high school), I seem to have these big dreams, but when I go to try to work on one of them, I fizzle out as far as energy goes.
Some days, I think that the fatigue of just being alive is too much to bear. It never felt like a depression (ie being sad), but there has been something wrong since high school.
I will take your advice and do more research.
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| | | "Re(3):I Think I'll wait a bit yet" , Wed 22 Jan 15:34
Some of what you say really sounds like depression to me. Why not give St. John's Wort a try. Start at 300mg a day for a few days to check for side effects, and if everything is fine up the dose to 6oomg for a few more days. Finally go to 900mg and see if that level doesn't brighten up your thoughts a little. It's not a miracle cure, but its effect is real and combined with some mental exercises and thought change can be very helpful. Depression begins slowly and gently and builds up to a problem. Most people don't realize the extent of their problem till they start trying to deal with it. It's a slow healing process but it's worth the effort. I do wish that i'd worked on mine 20 years ago, but i'm trying now!!!
James
Posts: 89 | | Registered: Tue 5 Nov 2002 7:3 |
| | | "Re(4):I Think I'll wait a bit yet" , Sat 8 Feb 11:25
Hi James,
Thanks for your kind words and support. I appreciate it! (Just started my second attempt w/ sjw yesterday.)
Thanks,
cobalt
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