Topic Title: Starting again / my experiences
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, Tue 12 Nov 14:12
I've just started on my second attempt at SJW. The first time around i wasn't taking enough, thanks to UK recommended dosage on Kira etc, and i just wasn't feeling the effect that much. I stupidly gave it up thinking that for that little effect i may as well try going without...
Stupid move.
I was okay for about a month, but i've just started university and had a really rough first few weeks. Then a couple of weeks ago i went through my journal and realised i'd gone from a couple of bad nights every couple of weeks, to every night being bad. The self harm started up again, and it was getting progressively worse.
So last week i started with the SJW again, thinking that even a small change for the better would be helpful. I noticed the difference immediately, so maybe towards the end of my last stretch with it my body had become accustomed to it? (i've noticed people saying it works better if they have a day or two 'off' every so often to clear their systems out). Had a lot to deal with recently so i keep 'topping myself up' with an extra couple of tablets to get myself through the day, as I can't afford the recommended dosage of Kira all the time, but as soon as the cheaper brand i've found arrive i will.
I've never told my doctor about the depression - mostly because of fear of being pressured into prescribed drugs. I'm just scared this wont ever get better.
Has anyone else struggled with the opinion that their depression isn't 'real'? Because i have that all the time. 2 good friends have clinical depression so it just makes me feel like my problems are nothing compared to theirs.
Posts: 18 | | Registered: Tue 18 Jun 2002 13:33 |
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| | "Re(1):Starting again / my experiences" , Wed 13 Nov 04:14
Hi Sez, I'm so glad you posted this. I just started taking SJW last night, and before taking the pills, I started to get really confused about my emotions and state of mind, wondering if my depression was real. I think taking SJW scared me and made me have to accept even more that I am depressed and that scared me. Maybe it scared me into a moment of denial where I questioned whether or not it was real.
I don't think we can compare our depression to others'. We all have different minds and different things going on that affect us in different ways.
Good luck with everything 
Posts: 3 | | Registered: Tue 12 Nov 2002 5:13 |
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