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Topic Title: Am I getting better?
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, Fri 20 Sep 12:08
Hi, I'm new to this site but I have often visited it since I've been going through this depression. I need some advice and hope that someone out there can help me. 2 years ago, I went through a separation from my X husband of 7 years. I have been raising our two boys practically on my own. After separation, I began dating a few months later and dated a few and had let downs. A year later I met this man who is now my new husband since June of this year. I don't know what happened but a week before we were to get married, I went into bad anxiety and depression. I was drink alot in the past two years and decided to stop at once. Once I stopped, 4 days later I experience those terrible thoughts. I didn't know what was wrong with me. I went back and forth to the doctors soooo many times and there was nothing there. They referred my to a physiciatrs who want to put me on prescription drugs. I was so scared and really didn't want to get on them so I've been using the GNC brand of St. Johns wort. Ive been taking it for 4 weeks now and I have seen some improvements but just last night my new husband said he want a divorce because this marriage was not what he thought it would be. Since we have been married I've been going through this and he could not understand why I was motivated to do things. Things are slowing getting better but I don't want to relapse from this. I found out that he has been very negative in this whole relationship and maybe he is the cause of the depression. MMaybe I felt something but didn't know what it was I was feeling about our relationship I really don't know. One minute I'm feeling happy and the next minute I'm down and have to talk my way out of it. Does anyone have any suggestions for me. Do you think I should continue with the St. Johns Wort? I really don't have an appetite and have lost 15 pounds. When I first started taking it, the second week I really started feeling okay and I was eating but when I started feeling all these negative things he was dishing out, I began to go back down. Any suggestion anyone? Thanks so much
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| | "Re(1):Am I getting better?" , Sat 21 Sep 06:06
How about marriage counseling? and contiune with the sjw. What dose are you taking? Remember sjw will take a few weeks to work. Once you are feeling better you will be able to deal with your problems, and counseling will help. Will your husband go to counseling? Even if he won't go you should, it sounds like you have issues from your previous marriage that you need to work out.
MJ DuPont
Posts: 387 | | Registered: Wed 20 Jun 2001 6:19 |
| | | "Re(2):Am I getting better?" , Sat 21 Sep 12:19
I've started going to a therapist. I think the SJW is working. My therapist said that she used it before and it does work. Thanks so much for your reply. What I think happen was that I was moving to fast in life. Sometimes we have to slow down so that everything can catch up to you. Your right about issues withmy ex-husband. Dealing with issues with him was quite overwelming and should have been seeing a therapist but you know how we think things aren't really affecting us. I read that alot of changes in your life can bring on a depression and that is exactly what I had a lot of changes. But isn't that a awful feeling that comes upon you. I never had a feeling so bad before in my life. My husband now does not want this marriage at all, he acts like he can't stand to look at me. I have to look at as his lost. I think I had a lot of fears inside of me before we got married and it would had been best if I had waited. You know the fear of is it going to work for use etc. I take 4 tablets a day spread out throughout the day. My therapist recommended at first for me to take 4 but I went with the 3 as recommended on the bottle. I up the doses last week when all this negative stuff started going on. I believe it's working but like you said, I'll probably really feel better once this is all over with. I have to get use to the fact of being by myself and a long while and find happiness within myself.
Posts: 1 | | Registered: Fri 20 Sep 2002 11:57 |
| | | "Re(3):Am I getting better?" , Wed 25 Sep 11:45
BTW Great nickname. I too am waiting for my sunshine.
I just wanted to say to you that maybe you should think of being BY yourself as being WITH yourself. If you can love being with yourself than you are never alone.
I think the language we use does make a difference. Language can affect us in negative and positive ways. Change your language and you change you perspective.
Personally I think you are getting better. I think everyone coming to this site is getting better because we can all feel connected in some way and also because we're taking our lives into our hands trying SJW and/or other treatments. I feel that these things combined is more than half the battle won :)
One last thing...There appear to be many people here (if not all) who understand, so untill you and I and they can feel better WITH ourselves (mind and body) and as long as we all stick together, we are not alone.
Sincerely,
MamaCat
Posts: 0 | | Registered: Wed 25 Sep 2002 11:21 |
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