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AcadiasMom
9th October, 2006, 04:04 PM
So ... I saw "Introduce Yourself" and I thought "why not?".

After I started college I had some sort of minor depressive episode, and I thought it was because I'd broken up with my boyfriend and didn't have many real friends at the time. I saw a couple of counselors at school, but they didn't seem to have enough time for me. I couldn't afford anything better, though, and I couldn't find any kind of low-cost service in the area.

Before I knew it, I'd decided to "take a semester off" and wasn't in school anymore. Then Hurricane Katrina happened ... and I lost everything. I'd moved all my things back to my hometown to stay with my parents for awhile, and everything was just ... washed away. We ended up with relatives for a month or so, but we couldn't stay there forever, so my parents bought a house.

I'm not benefiting from that, though. They thought they were done with me when I left for college, so I'm not welcome to stay there. They paid for me to see a psychiatrist a few times, and he put me on Lexapro (which didn't work for me), but after a few months they were frustrated because they were expecting me to get on medication, get better, and move out. So they stopped paying for the psychiatrist.

Luckily I had started talking to an old boyfriend, and he asked me to move in with him. I warned him that I wasn't the same kind of person, being depressed and anxious all the time, but he didn't care. He went through the same thing with the hurricane, but he's handling it a lot better than I am. We went through some awful things to get a FEMA camper, but it only made me worse (being in such a small space), so now he's back in school and we're renting a house. Some days I want to go back to school, too, but other days I know I can't handle it.

I think the only good part of my life in the past few years is talking to him again. He wants to get married, even though I'm crazy (not really ... but it seems like it to me), and he's doing his best to help me out.

So he's what keeps me (somewhat) sane. Him, and my two dogs. He already had one (Phatzo) and I wanted another badly ... so we have Acadia (thus the name, I consider myself the dogs' mom). They bring a little light into my life, so if I talk about them a lot ... I can't help it.

Um, so, my boyfriend really wants me to try different things to help the situation. I really don't want to go back to psychiatrists and doctors who don't know what they're prescribing, so I've been reading a lot and I'm interested in trying SJW.

If anyone has advice, or ideas for things that could help in the meantime, I'd be glad to know. I'm really just wanting to know that I'm not the only person out here who's going through this. Being in a new town and all ... I don't have many people to talk to.

jennaNC525
16th October, 2006, 11:42 PM
I'm sorry you lost all your belongings in Katrina. :( And sorry your parents arent being more supportive of you. I'm sure everything you've gone through has really added to your depression alot. I can't offer you any advice other than try SJW and prayer. I am new here and just started today, myself. {{{hugs}}}

Jenna

AcadiasMom
17th October, 2006, 01:55 AM
Thanks, Jenna.

I'm glad for the things I have ... my pets, my boyfriend, a few friends. And I'm luckier than most people who lived in New Orleans. I think about how things were before, sometimes, and how I didn't appreciate what I had. I think that's why these things happen sometimes.

I haven't been on the SJW long enough to know if it'll help or not, but I sure hope it does.

Good luck, yourself. :smile: I hope we both get better!

sassiesmith
22nd December, 2007, 01:51 AM
Just letting you know you are not on your own, I have recently stumbled across this site and it has made me feel better already. I to am just researching into sjw and am on day 2 of taking them. I feel for you with that happened when that hurricane struck, I can't imagine what that must have been like, I only have to put up with rain in London. I have no exuse for having the blues but everyone has different onset i suppose. Take care and keep the boyfriend if he makes you happy :)

fognurse
3rd February, 2008, 06:50 AM
I am new to this site as well, and looking forward to learning more about SJW. I'm sorry you've had so many tough experiences and disappointments lately. It sounds like your old boyfriend loves and cares for you. I'm glad you have his support. Support of another means so much - having him as an advocate and "cheerleader" of sorts will make a big difference. I hope you feel better soon.

AmyLee
5th February, 2008, 09:39 AM
Welcome to the forum. :smile: