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[Deputydawg]

I think I have been depressed for a long time and didnt realize intill lately how angry and how much I hated myself untill just recently. I read some of your posts and feel the same way in most instances. I really dont know what my problem is some days I feel so low all I can think about is death and dying. Some days I feel nomal and go about my day as if the last day didnt even happen. I go and see the doctor and I dont get any real answers so I did some research and here I am. I tried the SJW tonight for the first time and hope it works because on the bad days I scare myself when I think about all the different ways to die and or just disappear.

[Lollypops]

Hi Deputydog:

I'm sorry you're feeling so bad. I've been there a few times. Those times I've always sought help from my GP, and simply told him(her) that I feel sooo bad, that I'm experiencing a physical pain, and go from there. I've been lucky that I've encountered some very understanding, patient and competent doctors. It makes me feel safer that they're listening to me, and want to help. I had been on prescribed antidepressants for many years, tried SJW for a couple of weeks and stopped because of the sun sensitivity issue. I'm coping with other alternative methods....exercise, meditation, diet, supplements, etc. and feeling pretty good. Whatever methods you choose, I think you should be supervised with a good GP. I've found it very helpful to let my friends know that I'm in trouble and need their help. And whatever small thing I can do to lift my heart...like a short walk, a little yoga, a cup of my favourite tea...makes a big difference. Good luck to you. Hope you feel better soon.