I don't even have $14.99 for SJW (+6 replies) [Archive]

Kelly

19th February, 2006, 06:58 PM

April 12, 2003
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scarletohara <IMG SRC="http://www.sjwinfo.org/forums/graphics/faces/snowman.gif" border="1" width="32" height ="32" ></td><td align=right> </td></tr></table></td><td width="74%" bgcolor=#dddedd> <IMG SRC="http://www.sjwinfo.org/forums/graphics/icons/sad.gif"> "At my wits end" , Sat 12 Apr 02:23<HR SIZE=1> I've been a long time lurker and have gotten some valuable information from you regulars. Thank you for that. There have been times when you literally helped me put one foot ahead of the other. Here's my story. I have 2 children and have had severe depressive episodes for many years. It began after the birth of my second baby. Gee, if I'd known this was how things would have turned out, I'd have never brought them into this world. They are the most understanding kids you'd ever meet. They try so hard to tippy toe around and stay quiet when I try to sleep. Insomnia is a huge issue for me. I'm irritable so often because I'm completely exhausted. It's 5:11 am and I've yet to catch a wink of sleep for the last 3 nights. I'm about to burn and crash. At the moment, I'm unable to work due to surgery and my darling husband is unemployed. This of course adds to the stress around here. He's trying so hard and he worries about me. Hmmm, I worry about me. I worry that I will never be normal. I was taking zoloft but well, since there's no money coming in, I can't pay for it. I had to stop taking it. I need the medication. Good grief, my family needs me to take the medication. LOL I don't have a cent to my name and can't even afford the St. Johns Wort that you speak of. I've been without any medication now for about 17 days and I tell you, I feel like I'm right in the grips of this ogre, once again. It takes hold and consumes me. I'm not fit for the general public, let alone two innocent children that didn't ask to be brought into this. As I said, had I known, I wouldn't have dreamed of bringing kids into this genetic nightmare. So far though, neither of them exhibit any signs of it. I have exhausted all avenues of getting samples from my dr. to any kind of social assistance. Since I live in Canada, the help is pretty much "See ya...take care now." I've about begged, pleaded and ranted for some sort of help but ohhh, only if you're on welfare, can you get some medication. Puhlease, you'd think social services would thing "Hey, this lady is raising two kids with a severe mental illness, maybe we could fund the fricken $60 a month until her husband finds work." Not on your life. Do I sound bitter? I guess I am. Bitter and depressed and so ungodly tired you wouldn't believe it. I wish by some miracle I'd open my mailbox and find it filled with zoloft or herbals or just a big ole envelope full of miracles. If anyone is feeling particularly rich this evening.... Oh never mind, I'm not asking for handouts....but I certainly thank you for listening. Also, thanks for posting. I know there has to be more people who read these boards that never post and I know you have kept more than just myself going. Hugs Scarlet

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FeelingBetter <IMG SRC="http://www.sjwinfo.org/forums/graphics/faces/BaldEagle.gif" border="1" width="32" height ="32" ></td><td align=right> </td></tr></table></td><td width="74%" bgcolor=#dddedd> <IMG SRC="http://www.sjwinfo.org/forums/graphics/icons/posticon.gif"> "Re(1):At my wits end" , Fri 18 Apr 14:39<HR SIZE=1> Hello there, Read your post. I felt pretty bad a few months ago, and after 8 weeks of SJW, I am feeling much better. If it would help you get back on your feet, and you really can't affod it, I will send you some SJW. Let me know how to get in touch with you. Thanks, hope you are feeling better!

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scarletohara <IMG SRC="http://www.sjwinfo.org/forums/graphics/faces/snowman.gif" border="1" width="32" height ="32" ></td><td align=right> </td></tr></table></td><td width="74%" bgcolor=#eeeeee> <IMG SRC="http://www.sjwinfo.org/forums/graphics/icons/posticon.gif"> "Re(1):At my wits end" , Sun 13 Apr 20:20<HR SIZE=1> Hi everyone, Thanks so much for responding to my post. The $60 that I spoke of was what the zoloft cost. I had to stop it cold turkey because I couldnt' pay for another perscription. I'm having horrid withdrawl from it. The withdrawl didn't kick in for about 14 days. Weird eh? Anyway, Someone asked me where in Canada I am from. I live about 4 hours from the Toronto area. Today I priced the St. Johns Wart and it's $14.99 for 90 capsules. It may as well be $1499.99 because I don't have that either. All I can hope for is that my husband will find some work soon. This completely sucks. I keep getting brain zaps and am so dizzy but I'm not sure if that's from exhaustion or withdrawl. I think I have this problem of irrationality. It's hard for me to be objective with regards to my feelings. I'm an awful worrier and most times I don't know where to draw the line. I worry about the kids being fed properly. I worry to the point of not eating myself so that they won't have to do without. I worry that I'm damaging them mentally. Are they going to have problems when they grow up since they hear so much talk about "I didn't sleep AGAIN". I wonder if it'll be so imbedded in their little minds that it'll creep up on them when they're adults. I worry that hubby won't get work and the kids will get sick. I can't turn off the worry. Anyway, I would like to be able to control this at least until there's somewhat of an income here and I can get this fried brain some meds. LOL Oh, those zaps feel like someone's stretching a rubber band as far as it'll go and then "ping"...they let it go and sting you. It's right in the brain. PING! Well, thanks for listening.

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sheephead </td><td align=right> </td></tr></table></td><td width="74%" bgcolor=#dddedd> <IMG SRC="http://www.sjwinfo.org/forums/graphics/icons/posticon.gif"> "Re(2):At my wits end" , Mon 14 Apr 00:30<HR SIZE=1> Dear Scarlet 'O' The 'brain zaps you refer to are almost certainly withdrawal symptoms from your anti-depressant. I took Seroxat last year for about 5 months. Even coming off it slowly I suffered from head shocks just like you describe (a side - effect which neither my Doctor nor the instructions on the pack warned me about). Generally speaking, if you go and see your Doctor with mild to moderate depression they just lob a pack of anti - depressants at you with little or no advice and let you get on with it - side - effects, withdrawal symptoms and all. Wonderful. The head shocks will go, but it may take 4 - 6 weeks from the time you stopped taking the anti - depressants. Sheephead.

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mackinaw </td><td align=right> </td></tr></table></td><td width="74%" bgcolor=#dddedd> <IMG SRC="http://www.sjwinfo.org/forums/graphics/icons/posticon.gif"> "Re(1):At my wits end" , Sun 13 Apr 20:01<HR SIZE=1> Scarlett: where in Canada do you live? I live in Canada in Ontario near Toronto. I use to be on Prozac which cost $80 a month and just recently started taking St. John's Wort two months ago it works better than Prozac ever did and I feel a bit better every day. I have been battling this for over 20 years. I buy Webber brand and purchased it at Costco there is 180 capsules and it cost less than $15.00 and will last two months. That is $7.50 a month! It has also helped me to sleep more soundly at night then I use to, some people take it in the morning others at night depending on your particular problem. I can tell you other places to buy it depending on where you live. Try and deal with each problem a little bit at a time, chipping away at it each day. I know right now you feel so bad you feel you can't, so it's important to start taking the St. John's Wort as soon as possible. You have to feel better inside before you can deal properly with all your problems.

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sheephead </td><td align=right> </td></tr></table></td><td width="74%" bgcolor=#eeeeee> <IMG SRC="http://www.sjwinfo.org/forums/graphics/icons/posticon.gif"> "Re(1):At my wits end" , Sun 13 Apr 10:57<HR SIZE=1> Dear Scarlet, I'm sorry that your having a rough time at the moment. You mentioned a figure of $60 a month as the cost of taking SJW. You can, in fact, buy perfectly good brands of SJW for a hell of a lot cheaper than that. I don't know about Canada but in the UK, Holland and Barrett market their own brand product at ?8.54 for 200 (ie over two months supply!!). I'm sure if you look into it you would be able to source something similar where you live. If all else fails try the internet. I know it's a UK site but Healthspan sell a pack of 120 (40 day's supply) for ?5.95 - about $8.00. The address is www.healthspan.gg Good luck and happy shopping! Sheephead.xx

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EddieT <IMG SRC="http://www.sjwinfo.org/forums/graphics/faces/MrEd.gif" border="1" width="32" height ="32" ></td><td align=right> </td></tr></table></td><td width="74%" bgcolor=#dddedd> <IMG SRC="http://www.sjwinfo.org/forums/graphics/icons/posticon.gif"> "Re(2):At my wits end" , Sun 13 Apr 13:43<HR SIZE=1> Two other places to get SJW cheaply are vitacost.com and iHerb.com

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