Just started on SJW (+3 replies) [Archive] - Kelly's SJW discussion forum

Kelly

19th February, 2006, 05:57 PM

April 3, 2003
<table width=100% cellspacing="1" cellpadding="5" border="0"><tr> <td width="26%" bgcolor=#dddedd valign=top> <table width=100% cellspacing=0 cellpading=0 border=0><tr valign=top><td align=left> Jayd Dragon <IMG SRC="http://www.sjwinfo.org/forums/graphics/faces/Onk.gif" border="1" width="32" height ="32" ></td><td align=right> Home Page <IMG SRC="http://www.sjwinfo.org/forums/graphics/home-1.gif" border=0> </td></tr></table></td><td width="74%" bgcolor=#dddedd> <IMG SRC="http://www.sjwinfo.org/forums/graphics/icons/sunrise.gif"> "Just started on SJW" , Thu 3 Apr 14:47<HR SIZE=1> Hello all, I've decided to start taking St. John's Wort for mild-moderate depression. I've spoken with my doctor who said that she didn't want to put me on meds because I am already on birth control and metformin (doesn't sound like tons of meds to me...but anyway). I've put up with this blue cloud, sadness, irrational anger and disinterest in life for too long. Thinking back on it, I've been this way (sometimes a little better, sometimes a little worse) for years. The only reason I'm seeing it, rather than just thinking that I'm grumpy or weepy, is because my husband is the first person to not just say, "it's one of her moods" and let me get on with it. He is saying that this isn't normal and that he is having a hard time with never knowing how I will react (anger, crying, or just blank and unfeeling). There was always reasons (in my mind) for why I wasn't happy and I would have an excuse each time, but I am glad that my husband doesn't let me use those excuses to pretend that this is normal. There is no reason (environmentally) for me to be feeling this way. We moved 8 months ago from a city apartment (which I hated) to a little house in the rural countryside where I grew up. I should be happy and loving it - and I do love it, it is just that this incredible feeling of sadness is inside me. I'm living near my parents and sister now, and surrounded by mountains and greenery, I have a loving husband, an interesting job (pay could be better!) - this is what I wanted, why can't I be happy about it? I get so angry sometimes too, it is closer to rage and I know that anything my husband can say or do will just drive me over the edge. Because he acknowledges it and wants to deal with it (unlike my parents who would just give me my own space) there is anger directed at him but not at anyone else. I hate acting this way. I hate knowing that I am starting to get angry, or sad, or empty-feeling and not being able to stop it. I'm hoping that the SJW will help me to get this under control. I want to know what it is like to be happy with my life and joyful again. I want to be a nice person who can have fully-functioning relationships, a person that people want to be around. I am known for my sense of humour, but for many years I have felt that the jokes are there, and I say them and other people laugh, and this facade that is me laughs and jokes, but the real me sits inside with the blinds down. The jokes are from my mind, but not from my heart. I've waffled on for ages - sorry. On to my question :) I have looked on the internet and I've found no information that would indicate that St. John's Wort negatively reacts to diabetes meds. There are warnings against using it with anti-rejection meds and AIDS ****tails...but nothing about diabetes. Does anyone here have experience using St. J's Wort while diabetic? Thanks and take care, ~ Jayd Dragon
 Do not meddle in the affairs of Dragons; for you are crunchy and taste good with ketchup.
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danni </td><td align=right> </td></tr></table></td><td width="74%" bgcolor=#dddedd> <IMG SRC="http://www.sjwinfo.org/forums/graphics/icons/posticon.gif"> "Re(1):Just started on SJW" , Thu 24 Apr 08:53<HR SIZE=1> I just started taking SJW yesterday (04/23) after reading this website. I had heard that it helped with mild depression so I am hoping it helps me! When I read Jayd's letter I began to feel better already knowing I'm not alone with my mood swings. My poor loving boyfriend walks on eggshells not knowing what mood I'll be in and even I never know how I will react to things. It's a terrible feeling and I hate the person I have become. I know I can be a much better person and I am hoping that SJW will help me!! Wish me luck and thank you for all the messages on the board. They have made me feel normal again.
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vic26 </td><td align=right> </td></tr></table></td><td width="74%" bgcolor=#eeeeee> <IMG SRC="http://www.sjwinfo.org/forums/graphics/icons/posticon.gif"> "Re(1):Just started on SJW" , Tue 15 Apr 17:13<HR SIZE=1> Hi Jayd, I started taking SJW myself last week, I'd heard about SJW through friends of friends, but I didn't really know much about it. Recently, sick of having my very few ups & a hell of a lot of downs, I decided to try SJW. I found this website tonight & had to print off your letter to show my partner, as you explain exactly how I feel. The rage & anger, and although knowing exactly how I am acting, unable to do anything about it. I know what I'm doing but I REALLY DON'T WANT TO BE THE PERSON I AM AT THAT TIME, I apologise to my partner, he does understand. However, I am scared I will lose him as my moods have been bad for so much of the time. It's only been just over a week now since taking SJW, but I already feel so much calmer. The test of time will be when I have PMT, but I shall carry on as I understand it can take up to six weeks for SJW to really kick in. Vicky

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Tommy <IMG SRC="http://www.sjwinfo.org/forums/graphics/faces/TheRiddler.gif" border="1" width="32" height ="32" ></td><td align=right> </td></tr></table></td><td width="74%" bgcolor=#dddedd> <IMG SRC="http://www.sjwinfo.org/forums/graphics/icons/posticon.gif"> "Re(1):Just started on SJW" , Tue 8 Apr 15:11<HR SIZE=1> Jayd, I know what you mean about the mood swings, I was much the same way where I would get very angry at the people I love the most for stupid little reasons. I never really had a good one....Once I took SJW I felt that I was much more "even tempered", so I was happy, yet also I realized that I didn't get so angry for no reason at people. Can't help you w/ the diabetic part though, sorry. Hopefully SJW can help you be happy again.
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